I am flattered by how many of you reached out to check on me and to ask about me so soon after I disappeared from YouTube without a word.  I was overwhelmed with the battle I was having within myself if it was worth the time spent editing to cover up my deeply private thoughts.  In the end, I decided it is worth the time not to edit the video digitally but to read through my journal and cover up any thoughts I don’t want public with sticky notes.  I will no longer allow my anxiety or depression rob me of the chance to continue sharing my journals online.